Arakaki

into the deep.

sitting here, taking time, just to "be". you know those times, when you just need a moment, a minute to sit and gather thoughts scattered. Lounging here in the secret place, enjoying a beautiful cup of coffee, enjoying the rain cooling the earth.

feeling so often I can relate to the earth on a rainy day. Its that smell you can smell, the one you know, right before it rains. And you say to yourself, "its going to rain", ah, and the groaning the earth makes, almost like its opening itself up to receive the goodness thats about to downpour with much appreciation. I feel like that.. that groaning, that longing in me for the saturation of the Holy Spirit. Positioning myself, waiting, oh how the groaning comes forth, with eager anticipation of the saturation thats coming. How do I know? because I can smell the aroma of my Christ.

Waking up early yesterday morning, just sitting still, sitting in silence, again having a cup of coffee in hand. Just dreaming and thinking and writing and praying and singing... and I got so overwhelmed with a revelation that the Lord released to me... profound...
oh how many times in our lives, in my life, I only allow someone to come only so close to me, to my heart. That I place limitations of love on my life, and then, the walls go up, the defense comes out, and I push them away. too often. And then in that moment of thought, the Lord began speaking to me about the chambers of His heart, His perfect love, that has no walls, has no boundaries. And He began to speak so clearly to me, "Britany, you can go as deep in my love as you are willing to go. I will never close the doors, put up boundaries". And I was so wrecked, so challenged, that in my narrowmindedness I somehow tried to put God in my perspective and He just blew it away.

This profound revelation is changing my life.

The fact that God lets me go as deep in His love as I am willing to go. AH! I want it, I want to love him fully, I want to go deeper and deeper in Him that it transforms and shapes my love on this earth. That I would be so wrecked with the way that He loves me, that it would overflow and dump on those whom I am loving, and whom are loving me back.

and as I sit here, a few hours to myself... its hard not pondering the profound depths of the Lord, and how endless it is, and how it will take me all of eternity to discover the magnitude of the Lord. He is so personal and lets us go deep and deeper and deeper as we are willing to go.

will you go deep today?


cheers.
bc

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'gideon'

I don't have the power
I don't even have a clue
I don't have all the answers
I don't even have a few

But if I were really honest
And the truth were known of me
It might sound a little funny
But this is what my prayer would be

I don't know what to do
But my eyes are on You
I don't know what to do
But my eyes are on You

I lift my eyes toward the Heavens
Tune my ear to Your command
Help me boast in my condition
You're the God and I'm the man

-jason upton


p.s
[this man makes me happy]

"Rise UP Burning Ones, Rise UP!"

oh how Relentless He is.

full of the abundance and wisdom and love that never runs out, never goes empty.

He is so full of grace and relentless love that it blows me away and brings me to a place of utter brokenness. Something that's been flowing through this brain of mine, and slowly yet surely penetrating its way into my heart is this one sentence... "for He must increase and I must decrease". Oh how that's the utmost longing of my heart. That my King, would be so glorified so lifted high in my life, in my love, in my worship, in my relationships, in my thoughts, in my creativity, in my photography....  in everything. That I would live out of this place of kingdom perspective. Oh how I long for this to penetrate every fiber of my being, that He would burn as my First Love, my Onething. Ah, that the King of Kings would be so brightly burning in me, that people would have a taste of Jesus and be ruined for life. Oh how the Lord is longing to  break this religious spirit that oh so many times keep people and myself bound from experiencing just raw  Jesus.

I just want to encounter God, raw ,beautiful, relentless, gracious, God.

and so it is, this is my pursuit, this is my motivation. Just to LOVE Abba, and to minister to His heart, to worship Him in spirit and in truth, and to just return back, again and again and again to my First Love.

I'm am not okay with just sitting back. No longer will timidity have a role in my life, no longer will fear of man keep me bound from rising up as His burning one. 

"RISE UP BURNING ONES, RISE UP!"

I say YES to the burning hot, fiery, WILD, zealous, contagious, love for the altogether Lovely One. Oh that I would take risks, be wild, dance, sing aloud, and just love the Lord the way he deserves to be loved.

Amen to Him, and to Him be the glory!