into the deep.

sitting here, taking time, just to "be". you know those times, when you just need a moment, a minute to sit and gather thoughts scattered. Lounging here in the secret place, enjoying a beautiful cup of coffee, enjoying the rain cooling the earth.

feeling so often I can relate to the earth on a rainy day. Its that smell you can smell, the one you know, right before it rains. And you say to yourself, "its going to rain", ah, and the groaning the earth makes, almost like its opening itself up to receive the goodness thats about to downpour with much appreciation. I feel like that.. that groaning, that longing in me for the saturation of the Holy Spirit. Positioning myself, waiting, oh how the groaning comes forth, with eager anticipation of the saturation thats coming. How do I know? because I can smell the aroma of my Christ.

Waking up early yesterday morning, just sitting still, sitting in silence, again having a cup of coffee in hand. Just dreaming and thinking and writing and praying and singing... and I got so overwhelmed with a revelation that the Lord released to me... profound...
oh how many times in our lives, in my life, I only allow someone to come only so close to me, to my heart. That I place limitations of love on my life, and then, the walls go up, the defense comes out, and I push them away. too often. And then in that moment of thought, the Lord began speaking to me about the chambers of His heart, His perfect love, that has no walls, has no boundaries. And He began to speak so clearly to me, "Britany, you can go as deep in my love as you are willing to go. I will never close the doors, put up boundaries". And I was so wrecked, so challenged, that in my narrowmindedness I somehow tried to put God in my perspective and He just blew it away.

This profound revelation is changing my life.

The fact that God lets me go as deep in His love as I am willing to go. AH! I want it, I want to love him fully, I want to go deeper and deeper in Him that it transforms and shapes my love on this earth. That I would be so wrecked with the way that He loves me, that it would overflow and dump on those whom I am loving, and whom are loving me back.

and as I sit here, a few hours to myself... its hard not pondering the profound depths of the Lord, and how endless it is, and how it will take me all of eternity to discover the magnitude of the Lord. He is so personal and lets us go deep and deeper and deeper as we are willing to go.

will you go deep today?


cheers.
bc